Having had dark thoughts that have been a regrettable part of my past, I never thought I would find a happy life. It sounds a little over dramatic but for anyone who has depression, you know it seems like a battle that is extremely tough to win. I know that depression is going to come back, it will likely never fully leave my side but I now have systems to manage it. You name it and I likely tried it, just to make me feel happy but it was difficult to find something that consistently alleviated those dark feelings. What I had found was that the more I would go and workout, the happier my brain felt. I had to liken it to watching myself undergo a task and seeing myself complete it brought me joy. After I had got done setting out to lift what I wanted to, it was like telling my depression that it couldn’t keep me down.
Each morning that I awoke to go and exercise was another time that I shut down those depressing thoughts, before they could even enter my mind. In times where I had the least to do was when I often felt that depression kick in, the more I noticed it the less of a coincidence it seemed to be. If you are prone to depression, having a lot of time to yourself can be a double edged blade.
You’ll think that with absolutely no obligations that this is where you would find happiness. In my life, not having a task to complete or a goal to focus on would leave me bedridden, waiting for what was around the corner. It was during those darker times where I would be lying in bed, in the middle of the afternoon that I looked for what my story would become. When you do live with depressions, often your own thoughts will start to try and wedge their way in front of your goals. I remember many days where it felt like there was an invisible force keeping me away from enjoying the world. I never try to cater only one method of coping with and beating depression, this is only what I have had success with. I am not of the profession to be making medical recommendations that you should follow every word of.
Depression is a fickle beast, whatever helps you combat it is what you need to keep doing. Don’t take up lifting weights because you are sure it will end being depressed, only choose to start that up if it sounds like an interesting way to fill your time. I found solace in weightlifting because it kept me busy, brought new self-confidence, and led me to meet people who I have called friends and family for the larger part of the past decade. A good weightlifting routine will have you continually pushing yourself past your limits. If done properly, you should be able to lift heavier barbells, proving that you are rebuilding yourself, a big feat in its own right! I’ve had the pleasure of watching me transform into a man I never thought I could be. I went from avoiding every mirror I would pass to occasionally being caught checking my own reflection out, I’m not proud of it! If the depression you have comes from loneliness, working out can introduce you to new people and get you some attention from the gender you like!